Summer....... or BUMMER?

Summer is beginning to set in and I'm finding that I'm not liking it. I was really looking forward to summer because I missed my family and friends back in Florida, but what I was not anticipating were the struggles that I've been finding down here that seem to loom over everything else. Life really sucks without a car. That's not going to change anytime soon. Life also really sucks without a job. I've spent the past two days making rounds around the Tampa Bay area looking for a job at places close to home (I need to be able to ride my bike there), and almost everywhere I've gone has had the same answer, "Right now we're fully staffed, but we'll definitely keep your application on file if anything pops up." I'm so tired of that! Why has it become so impossible for me to find a job? I'll admit that I was a little half-assed about finding a job towards the beginning of the summer, but I still was putting in applications and going to job fairs. Now that I've really stepped up my game, I guess I'm just feeling increasingly disappointed with how things are turning out. When you put more energy into something, you expect a greater outcome, but it seems that's not how this summer is turning out. More energy, less outcome. The fact that Ruth Eckerd fell through really upsets me because I was really counting on that money. Now that I'm not finding a job elsewhere, I'm beginning to panic. The only interview that turned out on the positive side is the interview I had at Panera Bread by my house, so I'm hoping to hear back from them in the next few days. But until I have a job, I don't have a job, and money has a way of being incredibly finite. My mom is not able to help out because she has a way of being incredibly bad with money, and my father is in North Carolina. PLEASE GOD GIVE ME A JOB!

Alright, otherwise, things are fine. I might go to dinner/hang out tonight with my friend Jenna Siladie who I haven't seen in months, so I'm looking forward to that a lot. I'm starting to realize that my friends are what make everything else feel a little less brutal. I've always realized that subconsciously, but I'm beginning to value them a lot more consciously (not that I didn't value them a lot already).

I love everyone who is close to me. I need to call my friends from New York. I've done a terrible job of keeping in touch. Friends from New York, expect phone calls from me soon, or call me, because I miss you all terribly.